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I'm just so upset and angry with my "father" right now....
ARGH! HOW COULD HE DO THIS TO US!

I got bored with writing it. <.< I know I suck. Shut up. XD

I got bored so here's the third chapter of my little "story" I have yet to think up of a title for it.

New layout that I altered a bit just so that it looked good enough so people can actually READ it . XD
Yeah. Those createblog.com people need look at their measures again. Were they making this on the table of a Starbucks? Becauase the pixels sucked for everything. If I have time on Friday, I'll look over the other layouts of figure out just why those pictures won't work. Hmm...anyways. Onto my story! ^^

Enjoy!

Okay! So busy with my little uh...roleplays. I've decided, thanks to Dirty Laundry site that I am on, to make an extension story [short plot] with my character Vanessa Orth. I think of it as an rpg fanfic ^^ Read if you will, although I highly doubt my writing is very good.

All credit of ideas go to Katie and Tara of Dirty Laundry of Invisionfree forums ^^
Characters and plot of MY story goes to me ^^ Please don't steal if you're reading this.

Updates on My Own Life:: Found the second Kevin, only named Perry TANG...wow...we could really be silbings. xD
Maybe I'll write my life story on a hospital bed at the age of 62 XD

http://z14.invisionfree.com/dirtylaundry/index.php?act=idx
if you guys are curious for the real thing...hehe...JOIN! XD

Self,

I'm back. So much has changed. Jogging is so much fun. You can also stretch your stress and pain away. I learned that from my good buddy Tracy. ^^ Love you guys. Juju who had gotten her hair cut and Aminta who is all stressed out from the law program [now isn't it a good thing that i didn't sent that application in?] 

Everything with Allan is going well. Hmm...I guess. We learned about each other. I want a good picture of him. So I can actually picture him. NO, i remember how he looks like, but the last time, it wasn't the most pleasant thing to look at. If you get what I mean. xD

Just putting random things that's been happening. Tracy hasnt gotten over lights yet. Man, I miss Abhia. Got pissed at Carmen cause she's always lecturing. *shrug* Let her be whatever she wants to be. She'll end up being a famous and cool person in the end anyways. Ahh! Avatar =.= Hmm...should I go on friday over to Abhia's house? 

Kevin my bro is awesome. He pushes me to be better. And I've gotta get in touch with Mei. Vicky is as fun as ever. Just to sum it up. Prepschool isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Except for math. I would enjoy it if i knew what the hell the guy was talking about! >< Oh wells. Hope you guys are having as fun of a time as I am.

-Sinyee

You know how bored I am? Welll....I'm going to go and collect my fav. quotes and stuff.....hmm...yeah. Still bored

"You can't have the whole bargain. An actor should never marry, not even another actor. You're too involved with yourself, and your work is too demanding, to give the necessary amount of attention to another human being. Inevitably, that person feels left out. And becomes unhappy. We must never make people unhappy. Life's too short for that." -Katherine Hepburn [Woman of the Year]

i swear! the woman is a genius. She gave the perfect definition of love:
"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get--only what you are expecting to give--which is everything. What you will receive in return varies. But it really has no connection with what you give. You give because you love and cannot help giving. "

"I decided, very early on, just to accept life unconditionally; I never expected it to do anything special for me, yet I seemed to accomplish far more than I had ever hoped. Most of the time it just happened to me without my ever seeking it." 
- Audrey Hepburn

I guess that famous people runs in the family.

Ahhh! And then theres Ingrid Berdman who had a quote about acting: "It is not whether you really cry. It's whether the audience thinks you are crying.” 
Yeah right?

and then there's the pic of Greta Garbo: http://home.hiwaay.net/~oliver/garbomag3.jpg
Man...I think she looks really pretty there

And of course Marilyn Monroe ^^
"No-one ever told me I was pretty when I was a little girl. All little girls should be told they are pretty, even if they aren't."
and THAT my friend. Is sweet 
and then another acting tip/quote: "If I play a stupid girl and ask a stupid question I've got to follow it through. What am I supposed to do -look intelligent?"

~few minutes later~
OMG....Elizabeth Taylor? o.O Didn't even know....

Shall continue LATER

How can things get messed all up in one freakin' day?

In the morning, I was happy. Chipper. Felt awesome. Then my friends brought up the whole topic of double dating. >< Oh what a mess what a mess. I didn't even know what my parents would say. I mean, how can I be this regular girl to this center of all this unwanted attention? I hated it. I want things to be normal. I like a guy. He likes me back. So? WHO CARES. *sigh* I do. I DO And then after school he had to call. And my dad got all angry. There were ground rules set up.
1) No boys are to be with me alone. So he couldn't come in unless someone else, like a girl, came with us
2) I couldn't start dating until I was ready to support myself. AKA I couldn't date him until I finished high school. or college.....

So I did the only thing I knew at that time. Call JuJu. Boy oh boy was she such a life-savor. She rushed in and rescued us from humailiation. Well...it was okay I guess. Still making fun of me about being a midget....being a social retard.....my outhouse home. 

My mom thought he was gay and ... ugly?. The first thing that my dad said was "Do you speak Chinese?" and yeah...he said okay in chinese and that seemed to be the end of it.

Me? I was stuck in between. Then when we were in the car [me and my dad] we started having this conversation. More like a ... lecture. On how he doesn't want me to be in the position our family was in right now. In debt. Where they don't know english and don't have the skills to have the easy life. He was right. I am just tooooo young. So I'm ending this. We could chat all we want. But its hopeless. Is he really willing to wait 4 - 8 years for me to actually hug him? I have to get my first kiss when I'm 20 years old. Horray. =.=

All my friends ... well.....three maybe have boyfriends. Do I really want to be part of that? NO I shall stick with my independence of being a single person and well....be happy. I shall be happy. I'm sorry Allen I just think that this isn't going to work. Not because I don't like you.

I do.

It's just that the situation we're in is difficult and its just.... very confusing. 

I'm sorry?